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| I'm gonna update my twitter and plurk now. HAHA, i'm like so bored with my life.
ANYWAYS, i miss my high school friends :)
I AM very very excited to go to Hong Kong with my family, Raine and KARLO. :) This year has been one of the best and worst for me. :)
BTW, i hate this certain person. @#$@@%$@%$!#. :)
:) I LOVE YOU KRMC.
oh I adore the way you carry yourself with the grace of a thousand angels overhead. I love the way the galaxy starts to melt when we become one | | |
| Today everything goes well, i go out with my boyfriend have lunch..watch a good movie..go around the mall and talk about things.. whenever im out of the house and away from my family i feel free, and i forget the problems and little negative things that happen here at home everyday. dont get me wrong, i love my family..its just that sometimes people get too materialistic and the dont really understand what the other person feels and never hear out what they have to say.
i go home to do the finishing touches on my school report, since i'm the leader i have to make it look good.
my mom starts to get moody. she called me to open the skype so my grandmother could talk to my baby cousin and aunt. i said that im still doing something and since she's going home she could probably do it later. i wasn't shouting or angry or anything i was just kinda stressed and tired. she goes ballistic and screams at me over the phone, besides that i hear my psycho aunt dictating my mom things which probably triggered the anger of my mother...as she got home she started screaming at me and saying so much things that she wouldnt normally tell me. like " i always allow you to go out and do whatever you like, and a simple thing you cant do." she doesnt stop there.. " i always allow you to do what you like and go out with your boyfriend, YOU'RE GOING OUT WITH HIM INSTEAD OF ME.. you see him everyday and all the time!! instead of going out just do the more important things!" and lastly what hurt me the most is, "JUST GO WITH HIM, STAY WITH HIM!!!" :,C
i tried not to answer back but i said: who made you say these things, this isnt normally you..what happened today to make you like this?
and now, after 30 minutes my mom acts as if nothing happened. she has no idea how painful she spoke to me earlier. my eyes are so wet from trying to stop my tears from falling.
now i have no one to talk to because.. my friends are probably tired of listening to my non sense, my dad is so steady, my boyfriend is enjoying the company of his friends.
sometimes i just want to escape from eveything, because the little words that others utter.. could hurt the most but they dont realize it. it causes damage to everything. it's like they dont accept what kind of life i have now. i mean i cant be stuck in one place forever right?
:,,,,,,,,,c
these are the times when i feel so alone, that i just wanna go away. And go some place where i cant think of any misery. | | |
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Please believe me when I say no one else
could take your place. Can't let the haters
try and tear us apart, cause you're the only
one who holds my heart. <3
Listen to Your Man ; Stevie Hoang
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she
wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she
combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be
seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway
to the heart, the place where love resides.
( » Audrey Hepburn « )
<3 | | |
| Dear Diary,
I can finally apply this quote in my real life.
What if the person you secretly love tells you that he has already found the one he'll spend forever with? Would you be brave enough to ask who she is or keep the pain inside not knowing it's you after all?
Boy Love.
So there's this boy I met approximately 1 year and 5 months ago, back then we were just friends. As the months went by we became closer to each other and knew more things about each others lives. But this made me have a little bit of feelings for him, but i was in denial because i didn't think he'd take me seriously. He dated some girls back then that broke his heart and i was always there for him. I gave him some advice and comforted him til he felt better. I somewhat felt that whoever would fall in love with this guy would be the luckiest girl in the world. 
Boy Past.
About 8 months ago, i started blogging about this guy i met, yeah i did like him a lot and i thought something would happen in the future with this guy. We sort of dated, went out and always talked and stuff but i never really knew what he felt about me.
But 5 moths ago, that was around mid July. I kind of got confused on who i had feelings for. I was drunk and my friends were there to comfort me and take care of me, i couldn't tell them what my real problem was. I mean i did have problems at home and with friends but i was crying that time because of these 2 guys. Eventually i told my friend Cherie that i think i had feelings for Boy Love.
He eventually started courting me. It started July 18, I felt so enlightened, happy, i really couldn't explain what i really felt. After weeks, my feelings started to become deeper and deeper. And on August 14 i finally said those 3 words he always wanted to hear.  We became officially together on the 18th.
Now a month and 16 days, I've never felt this way before. He completes my day, makes me happy and love myself more. I never cared about anyone this much before. Yes i had Ex's in the past but it was never as real as this. I never really thought anyone would fall in love with a person like me, and I never thought it would be him. Everything's perfect, even if we have little misunderstandings it doesn't really matter because I love him.
He's everything I've wished for and I couldn't ask for more. He's more than enough. Sometimes i feel bad because I'm not treating him well and I'm sometimes not in the mood. 
IF YOU'RE READING THIS:
I want you to know I'll always be here through the hardships and success you'll be going through. I'll help you in anything you need and I'll always love you no matter what. I wont leave you. AND, just so you know I completely forgot about "Boy Past" ever since you came into my life 5 months ago.  I mean seriously. (except nun ano nga, nakatulog ka!) But please, you don't have to worry about anything.
I LOVE YOU.
xo,
Me.
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